2 CM & 75%.. AND STiLL COUNTiNG!

SO, STiLL NO BABY! i HAVE RUN OUT OF THiNGS TO DO AROUND THE HOUSE! THE ONLY THiNG i CAN REALLY THiNK TO DO iS TO JUST HANG UP ALLLLLL OF HER ONSiES iNSTEAD OF HAViNG THEM FOLDED.. HER ENTiRE ROOM iS DONE.. MiNUS THE NEW FURNiTURE GRANDPA iS BUYiNG FOR HER... BUT YEAAAAAH. SHE*S BEiNG WAY STUBBORN! i AM iN PAiN! HOW MUCH LONGER CAN i GO ON LiKE THiS?!?! WE EVEN WALK EVERY NiGHT FOR AN HOUR, AND YESTERDAY WENT TO THE ZOO! SO ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT WALKiNG, SEX, CASTOR OiL, AND SPiCY FOODS.. YEAH iT DOESN*T WORK.. FOR THOSE OF YOU iT DiD "WORK" ON... YOU WERE JUST READY!

i COULDN*T HAVE SAiD iT BETTER MYSELF..

i TOOK THiS OFF OF MY BEST FRiEND AMANDA*S PAGE.. iT*S SO VERY WELL WRiTTEN AND SO VERY TRUE!!! THiS iS WHY i LOVE MY FRiENDS.. ESPECiALLY HER!

To me, marriage is important, it's everything. I don't think that a marriage has to last forever but I DO think you should stay true to the one you've sworn your heart to. Cheating shouldn't be an option because your partner deserves the truth without the lies and deception. Do you not think that the truth of you not loving them anymore will hurt them enough?
I don't see how people can aide in the destruction of a marriage and be remotely proud about it. People who make and break vows and think it's a joke are lost. Why would you want to be with someone who turns their back on someone they swore their heart to? Do you think they won't do the same to you? What is it that you think makes you special? You're not free from pain especially when you're "second best".
None of this is really my business but it's so hard to watch. I've never been married so I can't say I've ever been in the position to cheat on my husband/wife but I just don't think it's honorable. I'm a person who believes in love and married and people who destory it make me SUPER angry.
HOMEWRECKER...who wants that title? find someone who doesn't have prior commitments to other people!

REFLECTiON...

AS iT NEARS OCTOBER 7, YET AGAiN, i REFLECT BACK. i MiSS MY UNCLE "BUG" DOUG SO MUCH THESE DAYS. JUST THE FACT THAT i CAN*T PiCK UP THE PHONE, CALL HiM, AND HERE HiM MAKE THE FUNNiEST JOKES EVER. i CAN*T EVEN BEGiN TO iMAGiNE WHAT LiFE WOULD BE LiKE WiTH HiM AROUND RiGHT NOW. i LiKE TO JOKE WiTH MYSELF, AND TELL MYSELF THAT THE REASON ABiGAiL iS BEiNG SO STUBBORN iS B/C MY UNCLE BUG iS UP THERE MAKiNG HER WAiT UNTiL HiS BiRTHDAY TO BE BORN. MAYBE iT iS JUST WiSHFUL THANKiNG. MY UNCLE MEANT A LOT TO HiS FAMiLY. OUR BLOOD WAS WAY THiCKER THAN WATER. NO MATTER WHAT TRiALS OR TRiBULATiONS OUR FAMiLY WENT THROUGH. i WiSH HE WAS HERE RiGHT NOW TO GUiDE MY COUSiNS iN A BETTER PATH THEN THE ONES THEY HAVE CHOSEN. HE ALWAYS KNEW HOW TO MAKE THE HOLiDAYS SO WONDERFUL. i WiSH ABiGAiL WOULD HAVE AT LEAST GOTTEN TO SPEND ONE THANKGiViNG OR CHRiSTMAS WiTH HiM. SHE WOULD HAVE LOVED HiM TO PiECES!!! ANY WAY, JUST WANTED TO WRiTE A LiL BOUT HiM...

i LOVE YOU UNCLE BUG! GLAD YOU*RE UP THERE LOOKiNG OVER OUR FAMiLY AS ALWAYS PROTECTiNG US!

iS THERE LiGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL?

WELL, MONDAY NiGHT AT ABOUT 6PM i STARTED HAViNG CONTRACTiONS. THEY LASTED ABOUT 30 SECONDS AND WERE COMiNG EVERY 5 MiN. WELL, AT 11PM i DECiDED TO CALL THE ON CALL PAGER. THE DR TOLD ME TO GO AHEAD AND COME iN. SO, OFF TO PROViDENCE WE WENT! THE HOOKED ME UP AND DiD THE NST. WELL, SURE ENOUGH i WAS HAViNG REGULAR CONTRACTiONS. YAY! i THOUGHT... THEN THEY CHECKED ME. ONLY TO FiND OUT i AM A 2 AND 50% STiLL LiKE i WAS LAST WEDNESDAY! WELL, THEY CALL THE DR AND HE DECiDES i SHOULD GO WALK AROUND FOR AN HOUR, COME BACK, AND DO THE NST AGAiN. SO, OFF DOWN STAiRS RiCK N i GO! ME iN TWO HORRiBLE HOSPiTAL GOWNS, FLiP FLOPS THAT WERE KiLLiNG ME, AND SWEATiNG LiKE A PiG! WE DiD OUR HOUR WALK, HOOKED BACK UP TO THE NST, AND THE ONLY THiNG WALKiNG DiD WAS MAKE THE CONTRACTiONS STRONGER. STiLL THE SAME LENGTH & DiSTANCE APART, BUT TONS STRONGER. WELL, THEY DECiDE THAT SiNCE i DiDN*T DiLATE, THAT i SHOULD JUST GO HOME AND TAKE ViSTARiL AND "REST". SO, THAT*S WHAT i HAVE BEEN DOiNG. iT*S NOT FUN BEiNG A ZOMBiE ALL THE TiME, BUT AT LEAST i AM NOT iN WRETCHED PAiN ALL DAY! THE DOSAGE OF ViSTARiL (iT*S USED AS A PRE-SURGiCAL SEDATiVE) MAKES ME SLEEP, NO JOKE, FOR 12 HOURS. i DO, HOWEVER, GET UP TO EAT EVERY NOW AND AGAiN. iF iT WASN*T FOR ABiGAiL, i WOULDN*T EVEN HAVE THE DESiRE TO EAT ON THESE THiNGS! CRAZY! BUT EVERYTHiNG iS STiLL THE SAME! i AM JUST GLAD MY BOSS UNDERSTANDS AND iS LETTiNG ME SUFFER THROUGH THiS PAiN AT HOME iN BED! iT*S NiCE TO BE ABLE TO JUST LAY iN BED AND DO WHAT i AM SUPPOSE TO! MY PREGNANCY HAS BEEN PRETTY PERFECT ACTUALLY. i WAS PRETTY SWOLLEN OVER THE WEEKEND, BUT ALL OF THAT HAS SUBSiDED. iT*S WEiRD HOW ONE DAY i AM THE GOODYEAR BLiMP, AND THE NEXT DAY i AM JUST A CUTE LiL SHORT GiRL WiTH A BABY BUMP *LOL*. iT*S BEEN A FUN TiME SO FAR! i JUST CAN*T WAiT FOR HER TO GET HERE, BUT SHE*S TAKiNG HER OWN SWEET TiME...

ANOTHER GREAT SATURDAY!

SO, YESTERDAY WAS PRETTY GREAT! NiCOLE AND BAiLEY CAME OVER, AND BAiLEY DECORATED ONE OF ABBY*S SHELVES FOR HER ROOM! iT*S TOO DARN CUTE! THEN RiCK GOT HOME FROM WORK, i GOT READY, AND WE MET MY DAD AND UNCLE JOHN AT DON CARLOS FOR DiNNER. LET ME TELL YOU, THAT PLACE HAS THE NASTiEST CHiCKEN ENCHiLADAS EVER! THEiR SOUR CREAM SAUCE, iS LiTERALLY, MELTED SOUR CREAM! YUCK! SO, i ATE 3 SOPAPiLLAS iNSTEAD HAHA! THEN, BOUT 8, WE LEFT THERE, AND HEAD BACK TO OUR HOMETOWN MCGREGOR FOR FOUNDER*S DAY. THEY CLOSE DOWN THE WHOLE DOWNTOWN BLOCK, AND THERE*S A BAND, VENDORS THERE, FOOD, GAMES, BEER(WHiCH RiCK LiKED B/C HE COULD WALK THE STREETS OF OUR TOWN DRiNKiNG BEER AND LiSTENiNG TO GOOD MUSiC), AND EVERYONE FROM TOWN iS THERE! iT*S AWESOME! BEEN GOiNG TO FOUNDER*S DAY iN MCGREGOR SiNCE i WAS 16! THiS YEAR iT WAS BETTER B/C i GOT TO HOLD MY HUSBAND*S HAND AND WALK THE STREETS OF THE TOWN WE LiVE iN! iT WAS TOTALLY NiCE! WE TALKED TO SOME PEOPLE, AND JUST HUNG OUT AND JOKED WiTH EACH OTHER ALLLL NiGHT! iT WAS SO MUCH FUN! THEN WE CAME HOME ABOUT 10, BECAUSE RiCK WAS TiRED! i WAS READY TO PARTY THE NiGHT AWAY ON THE STREET HAHAHA! i CAN*T WAiT TO TAKE ABBY NEXT YEAR! WELL, WE FiNALLY WENT TO BED ABOUT ONE, BUT i DiDN*T GET ANY SLEEP AT ALL! i KEPT HAViNG THE WORST NiGHTMARES EVER! BUT NOTHiNG TO DO W/ RiCK OR ABBY! JUST OFF THE WALL, MOViE TYPE NiGHTMARES! MY HEAD STiLL HURTS FROM THEM! i HAD 3 DiFFERENT ONES! i WOULD WAKE UP W/ MY HEART POUNDiNG AND SWEATiNG, THEN TRY NOT TO FALL ASLEEP, BUT i WOULD, AND THEN WAKE UP AGAiN iN SHEAR TERROR! i DON*T KNOW WHAT*S GOiNG ON! AGH! BUT... STiLL NO BABY =-( SHE iS GOiNG TO BE FASHiONABLY LATE.. YA*LL WATCH...

TGiF!

i WENT SHOPPiNG TODAY. STiLL TRYiNG TO GET THiS BABY TO COME OUT! SHE HASN*T REALLY BUDGED! SHE HAS DROPPED LOWER THOUGH! i CAN SiT ON THE BED CROSSED LEGGED AND LEANED OVER THE COMPUTER W/OUT iT HURTiNG ANY MORE B/C SHE iS WAAAAY DOWN FROM MY LUNGS NOW!HAHA! ANY WAY, SHOPPiNG, i SHALL SAY, WAL-MART AND BORED PREGNANT WOMEN, YEAH, THEY DON*T MiX!! HAHA! i BOUGHT MORE STUFF FOR ABBY TODAY! THEN i WENT TO THE ULTiMATE ESCAPE SPA AND BOUGHT $145 WORTH OF MAKE-UP, AND THEN i CAME HOME AND PUT UP ABBY*S CURTAiNS. OH, i ALSO PAiNTED HER WALL LETTERS! THEY ARE WHiTE W/ GREEN POLKA DOTS AND ZEBRA RiBON TO HANG THEM ON THE WALL BY! AGH! TOO CUTE! i MUST SAY, i NEVER THOUGHT i COULD BE THiS CREATiVE! THE ONLY THiNG i HAVE REALLY BOUGHT THAT i HAVEN*T MADE MYSELF, iS THE BEDDiNG! EVERYTHiNG ELSE LiKE PiCTURE FRAMES, WALL LETTERS, DRAPES, SHELVES, ETC i HAVE BOUGHT VERY CHEAPY AND ADDED MY OWN FLARE! i DEFiNiTELY FEEL LiKE RiCK iS GOiNG TO SPOiL ABBY AND i ROTTEN! HE USE TO WANT TO BUY EVERYTHiNG FOR HiMSELF, AND NOW iT*S ALWAYS ,"BABY GO BUY YOU SOMETHiNG. i WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF." OR "OK BABY WHATEVER YOU WANT FOR YOUR OR ABBY iS OK WiTH ME." BUT USUALLY i DON*T BUY iT! i ABOUT DiED WHEN i SPENT $145 ON MAKE-UP!!! i VERY SELDOM WEAR THE STUFF ANY WAY! UGH! OH! TOMORROW iS FOUNDER*S DAY iN MCGREGOR! iT*S A BiG STREET DANCE/BBQ COOK-OFF/TRACTOR RACE/CONCERT THiNG ON MAiN STREET! iT*S GOiNG TO BE SOOOO FUN! i CAN*T GO UNTiL 4 THOUGH!!! RiCK HAS TO WORK TOMORROW! UGH! BUT WE ARE GOiNG AS SOON AS HE GETS HOME! THEY HAVE LOTS OF VENDORS THAT SELL COOL STUFF, AND ALL THAT! i CAN*T WAiT! MAYBE i CAN FiND SOME MORE STUFF FOR ABBY AND i?!?! HEHEHE AGH! FiNALLY, LiFE iS WONDERFUL AND i HAVE EVERYTHiNG i WANT, NEED, & DESERVE! i AM A LUCKY GiRL!!! =-)

ANOTHER DAY!

SO i STARTED HAViNG THE WORST LOWER BACK PAIN LAST NiGHT ABOUT 3AM. i MEAN iT WOKE ME OUT OF MY SLEEP. WELL iT*S BEEN HAPPENiNG EVER SiNCE. i DON*T KNOW WHAT THE HECK iT iS! i STAYED HOME FROM WORK TODAY AND SLEPT LiTERALLY ALL DAY LONG. MY LEGS WERE PRETTY REDiSH/PURPLE THiS MORNiNG AT ABOUT 6. SO, i HAVE KEPT MY FEET UP. WHEN i*M NOT HAViNG SUDDEN SPiKES OF LOWER BACK PAiN, i AM UP WALKiNG. i AM REALLY HOPiNG SHE COMES SOON! i DON*T THiNK i CAN STAY LiKE THiS FOR MUCH LONGER! i DO, HOWEVER, STRANGLY FEEL BETTER? i STiLL HAVE THE LOWER SPiKES OF BACK PAiN, BUT i DON*T KNOW?! AGH! i JUST KNOW i AM SEVERLY iMPATiENT NOW! i HAVE ANOTHER DR*S APPT NEXT THURSDAY. i HOPE i DON*T MAKE iT TiLL THEN!!!!!

AND COUNTiNG...

SO, i WENT TO MY APPOiNTMENT TODAY! THE DOCTOR SAiD i WAS 2CM AND 50%!!! SHE SAiD MY CERViX WAS SOFT AND MUSHY! SO, LET*S PRAY THiS LiL GiRL COMES SOON!!! i AM SO ANXiOUS AND READY TO MEET HER iT*S UNREAL! i HAVE ALREADY PACKED MiNE & RiCK*S BAG, PACKED THE DiAPER BAG, & RiCK PUT THE CAR SEAT iN MY CAR THE OTHER DAY! YESTERDAY, i WENT AND VACCUMED, CLEANED THE CARPET, CLEANED THE iNSiDE, AND SPRAYED SOME CARPET FRESHENER ON THE CARPET! MY CAR iS BABY READY NOW! AGH! EVERYONE PRAY i DON*T HAVE TO STAY DiLATED AND SORE FOR THE NEXT 4 WEEKS!!! =-) YAY!

ABiGAiL*S ROOM!!

SO WE GOT HER ROOM DONE SOME WHAT. AT LEAST A PLACE TO PUT HER WHEN SHE GETS HOME! MY DAD iS GETTiNG HER A WHiTE 4-iN-1 CRiB AND A DRESSER/HUTCH COMBO iN WHiTE. SO, THiS iS JUST TEMPORARY!!! BUT i KNOW EVERYONE HAS JUST BEEN DYiNG TO SEE HER ROOM. SO, HERE iT iS!!! =-)

DADDY PiCKED OUT ALL THE SiGNS FOR HER ROOM, AND HE CHOSE WHERE TO HANG THEM! THE ONE ABOVER HER CRiB READS,"THE ANGELS DANCED THEY DAY YOU WERE BORN" AND THE ONE ABOVE ONE OF THE WiNDOWS READS,"YOU ARE MY SUNSHiNE" WE ALSO HUNG THE CROSS SANDRA GOT US ABOVE ONE OF THE WiNDOWS. iT*S GORGEOUS!!! LOTS OF PiNK iT iN!!! AGH! LOVE LOVE LOVE HER ROOM!!! STiLL HAVE MORE WORK UNTiL HER MASTERPiECE ROOM iS FiNiSHED!!!

OH BABY OH BABY!

SO, i WANTED TO START OFF BY LETTiNG EVERYONE KNOW... TiFFANY WiLKES (HiGHTOWER FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DiDN*T KNOW SHE GOT MARRiED) HAD HER BABY BOY RAGEN!!! SHE JUST SENT ME PiCTURES! HE WAS ABSOLUTELY PERFECT!!! SHE WAS JUST AS GORGEOUS AS EVER TOO! WHiCH i COULDN*T iMAGiNE HER BEiNG ANY LESS!!! AGH! i AM SO EXCiTED! SHE WAS 4 WEEKS AHEAD OF ME iN HER PREGNANCY. SO, NOW THiS MEANS ABiGAiL iS EVEN CLOSER! i CAN*T WAiT TO POST PiCTURES OF HER! i REALLY CAN*T!!! WE ARE PUTTiNG THE CRiB TOGETHER TOMORROW. SO, i WiLL POST PiCTURES AGAiN!!! ON WARD TO OTHER NEWS, i HAD TO GO TO THE DOCTOR AGAiN ON FRiDAY!!! i HAD GOTTEN THE WORST LEG CRAMPS EVER! i*M TALKiNG PHYSiCALLY ViSiBLE PAiNFUL KNOTS ALL DOWN MY LEGS, AND i FELT LiKE i WAS HAViNG CONTRACTiONS. NOT SEVERE ONES, BUT ENOUGH TO NOTiCE. i THOUGHT iT WAS JUST FALSE LABOR PAiNS SiNCE i*M ALREADY DiLATED. WELL, i GO iN FOR THE NST, AND iT*S NOT CONTRACTiONS. DR.MiCUS RUBBED MY OH SO PAiNFUL LEGS, AND TOLD ME i WAS NOT GETTiNG ENOUGH CALCiUM AND i NEEDED AN EXTRA, YES EXTRA 1600 MG OF CALCiUM. SHE TOLD ME TO GO HOME, TAKE MY SEDATiVES SHE GAVE ME BEFORE, AND JUST REST. SO, OFF TO HOME i WENT! MY MOTHER BOUGHT ME THE CALCiUM PiLLS, AND LET ME JUST TELL YOU, THEY ARE MASSiVE!!! OH, DR. MiCUS GAVE ME SOME PHENERGAN FOR MY NAUSEA... LiTTLE DiD i KNOW, THEY ARE SUPPOSiTORiES!!! SO, I*LL STiCK OUT THE DANG NAUSEA... NOT PUTTiNG ANYTHiNG iN MY RUMP!! *LOL* ON WARD TO OTHER NEWS... i AM SO TiRED!! LET ME PUT SOME PiCS UP N GO BACK TO BED!!!

THiS iS MY TUMMY AT 35 WEEKS. i AM SO LUCKY NOT TO HAVE MANY STRETCHiES ON MY SKiN!! i ONLY HAVE THEM ON MY HiPS, AND THEN OF COURSE THE ONES i HAD GOTTEN LAST SUMMER FROM BEiNG A COW ON MY THiGHS!!!

SO, THAT*S ME AND MY BABY KiTTY DiXiE!! SHE LOVES HER BABY SiSTER ALREADY! SHE WiLL *OCASSiONALLY* SiT ON MY TUMMY AND BAT AT ABBY EVER SO GENTLY WHEN ABBY iS MOViNG AROUND iN MY TUMMY. iT*S SO ADORABLE! THEN, BABY KiTTY WiLL GET SO POOPED OUT SHE JUST CURLS UP ON ME AND SNOOZES OUT, THAT iS OF COURSE, UNTiL ABBY KiCKS HER OFF! *LOL* THOSE TWO ARE GOiNG TO BE THE BEST OF FRiENDS EVER!!! ON WARD TO THE SNEAK PEAK OF THE PROCESS OF ABiGAiL*S ROOM =-)

THiS iS HER BEDDiNG. iT*S WAY TOO CUTE! i AM SO GLAD i FOUND iT!!! HER ROOM iS GOiNG TO BE A CHiC COWGiRL THEME AND HAVE SOME RHiNESTONES AND SUNFLOWERS ON THE BORDER OF HER SHELVES i HAVE FiNALLY FiNiSHED =-) BUT YOU CAN*T SEE THOSE UNTiL THE WHOLE ROOM iS DONE =-) i LiKE TO TEASE!! HEHEHE

THiS iS THE COLOR OF HER ROOM! iT WENT FROM A BRiGHT UGLY BLUE TO THiS! iT TOOK SEVERAL COATS, BUT iT iS FiNALLY DONE!!! i AM SO EXCiTED!!! i WiLL POST THE PiCTURES OF HER TEMPORARY CRiB W/ HER BEDDiNG AS SOON AS WE GET iT UP!!! YAY!!!

Thanks Shelly!

i WAS TAGGED.. NOW i TAG THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE READ THiS TOO HEHEHEHE





i am: COMPLETELY HAPPY

i think: THAT BEiNG A WiFE/SOON TO BE MOMMY iS GREAT STUFF!
i know: THAT GOD HAS A PLAN FOR EVERYTHiNG AND EVERYONE!
i want: FOR ABiGAiL TO GET HERE SO BAD ALREADY!
i have: THE BEST HUSBAND/FAMiLY/FRiENDS
i wish: FOR EVERYONE TO FiND THEiR OWN HAPPiNESS
i hate: PEOPLE THAT THiNK LiFE iS A GAME, AND THE PEOPLE THEY HURT SHOULD WASH THEiR HANDS OF iT AND MOVE ON... UGH!
i miss: MY UNCLE BUG SO BAD RiGHT ABOUT NOW

i fear: LOSiNG LOVED ONES...
i feel: VERY TiRED N EXHAUSTED! CAN*T WAiT FOR MY BABY TO GET HERE!
i hear: MY DAiSY GiRL SNORiNG.. i MiSS THAT DOG!
i smell: MY DAiSY GiRL.. HER*S A STiNKY DOGGY!
i crave: NOTHiNG.. i JUST HAD SOME NiLLER iCE CREAM!

i wonder: HOW THiS HURRiCANE WiLL AFFECT EVERYTHiNG!
i regret: NEVER TELLiNG MY UNCLE HOW MUCH HE MEANT TO ME, AND NEVER LETTiNG GO OF THE SMALL THiNGS HE DiD THAT UPSET ME. iT*S ALL TOO LATE NOW.. i REGRET REGRETTiNG..
i love: MY HUSBAND/FAMiLY

i ache: ALL OVER MY BODY ESPECiALLY MY LEGS!!!!
i care: ABOUT MY HUSBAND AND BABY LOTS N LOTS
i always: WANT TO MAKE MY FAMiLY HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT
i am not: THE KiND OF PERSON TO TURN AWAY FROM MY FRiENDS OR FAMiLY WHEN THEY ARE iN NEED.. i LOVE TO GiVE WHATEVER i HAVE TO HELP PEOPLE
i believe: iN TRUE LOVE.. THE LOVE MY HUSBAND & i HAVE COME TO SHARE AND GROWN THROUGH TREMENDOUSLY iN THE PAST YEAR
i dance: iN MY CAR, iN OUR ROOM.. ANYWHERE LOL i LOVE DANCiNG!
i sing: EVERY CHANCE i GET! i LOVE iT!
i don't always: UNDERSTAND PEOPLE AND THEiR ACTiONS
i fight: FOR WHAT i BELiEVE iN, MY FAMiLY, AND WHEN i KNOW i AM 100% RiGHT
i write: OFTEN NOW DAYS... iT HELPS!
i win:ALL THE TiME! HE HE iF YOU*RE A PART OF MY LiFE GET READY TO PAY THE "i WiN" GAME B/C i ALWAYS WiN HAHAHA JKJK
i lose: WHEN iT COMES TO BEiNG THE "NiCE" PERSON. i AM A STiCKLER FOR CONSEQUENCES AND i NEVER WANT TO DO ANYTHiNG THAT WOULD MAKE ME FACE SEVERE CONSEQUENCES..
i never: REGRET OR FORGET
i confuse: MY HUSBAND LOTS! HE CALLS ME "SPACE CADET"
i listen: TO LOTS OF MUSiC! i LOVE LOVE LOVE MUSiC!!!!
i can usually be found: AT HOME, WORK, OR ANYWHERE W/ MY AMAZiNG HUSBAND!
i am scared: LOSiNG A LOVED ONE
i need: TO GO SHOWER N GET READY TO GO TO THE GROCERY STORE!
i am happy about: THE LiFE i HAVE!

DR.'S APPOiNTMENT!!!!

SO, i HAD MY 35 WEEK CHECK UP TODAY! ABiGAiL iS 5 POUNDS!!! i AM 1 CM DiALATED AND HE SAiD i WAS 1CM(NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANT AT ALL?!?!?!)!!!! HER HEARTBEAT WAS 148. i AM EXCiTED AND NERVOUS! TO ME BEiNG DiALATED MEANS, iT*S COMiNG SOON! i SAY SOON, BECAUSE, WELL 5 WEEKS iS SOON! i COULD GO ANY TiME NOW OR GO FULL TERM! WE SHALL SEE WHAT THiS LiTTLE GiRL WiLL WANT TO DO! i AM TOTALLY EXCiTED NOW! SO ANXiOUS TO MEET HER! AGH! i CAN*T WAiT! HER ROOM iS FiNALLY ALL THE WAY PAiNTED. WE ARE GOiNG TO SET UP HER "TEMPORARY" CRiB THiS WEEKEND SO i CAN SET HER BEDDiNG UP AND TAKE PiCTURES... AND HAVE A CRiB JUST iN CASE! FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON*T KNOW, MY DAD iS VERY SUPERSTiTOUS AND WON*T BUY HER FURNiTURE OR ANYTHiNG FOR HER UNTiL SHE iS HERE! SO, i AM GLAD RiCK*S MOM GAVE US A CRiB! AT LEAST iF SOMN iS BACK ORDERED OR NOT iN STOCK AND HAS TO BE ORDERED, SHE*LL HAVE SOMN TO COME HOME TO! PLUS, i CAN NOT STAND TO NOT HAVE HER ROOM PUT TOGETHER! GOODNESS! SO WE*LL HAVE PiCTURES UP OF HER "PRELiMiNARY" ROOM *LOL*!!! THEN, AFTER SHE GETS HERE, i*LL POST SOME OF HER ACTUALLY ROOM!!! THiS WEEKEND, BABA, NiCOLE, & i ARE SUPPOSE TO DO THE SHELVES!!! WEATHER PENDiNG OF COURSE!!! LET*S PRAY FOR THE BEST FOR OUR COMMUNiTY AND OTHERS!!! UGH!!! i CAN*T BELiEVE THiS STORM THAT*S A BREWiN! LET*S ALL KEEP THE FAiTH!!!

Exciting!

SO, YESTERDAY, i FOUND OUT MY BEST FRiEND NiCOLE iS 6 WKS PREGNANT! i AM SO VERY EXCiTED! WE HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE KiDS AROUND THE SAME TiME SO THEY CAN GROW UP TOGETHER JUST LiKE WE DiD! i DON*T HAVE A SiSTER! SO, NiCOLE iS THE NEXT BEST THiNG! i AM SO EXCiTED TO GiVE HER ADViCE, HAND ME DOWNS *LOL*, AND HELP HER THROUGH HER PREGNANCY! iF ABBY GETS HERE ON SCHEDULE, OUR KiDS WiLL BE 7 MONTHS APART! NiCOLE AND i ARE 9 MONTHS APART iN AGE, BUT WE ARE STiLL BESTEST FRiENDS! i AM MORE LiKE HER BiG COOL SiSTER i THiNK *LOL* MORE THAN ANYTHiNG ELSE! i WiLL KEEP ALL OF YA*LL UPDATED ON HER JOURNEY THROUGH PREGNANCY TOO! HEHEHEHE! YAY!

Oh.. Special Thanks..

So, I just wanted to give a lil "shout out" to some folks haha! I always want people to know how thankful I am for them to be in my life! So, I wanted to thank you Shelly, Katy, my mom, and Apryle for always being just one comment away on MySpace or on here for any concerns or venting sessions I wish to have! It's so nice having friends that have been where I am, and can REALLY sympathize. Not just the ones that look at you like your a CRAZY insane squirrel on catnip and saying "Oh it's ok I understand." BECAUSE THEY DON'T and you can tell the sincerity in their voice. However, I do still love those who don't understand for being patient. Any way, just thanks ya'll! I appreciate everything!!!!

Family...

So, I though tI would write some today. I have nothing else to do until I can get to Office Depot tomorrow. So, I'm just killing some time. I have notcied that it's not just ME any more that has family problems. It's really sad that in-laws have to be so dispicable! It really is. How can they go from standing next to you in support at your wedding, to being so rude and cruel only months later? It's almost like sometimes they get too upset that they can't be the center of the world any more, and that for once in their lives someone is more important to them. I mean it's crazy it really is! I have such sympathy for my friends that go through this, and I never knew it could pose such a turmoil in your life until it happened to me! How can your sister-in-law side with a trashy homewrecker, and then when you've had enough of the crap and stand up for yourself, you get yelled at? It's so weird! I don't understand people. I remember when my brother was engaged to Lauren, at first I didn't like her, but I grew to love her because my brother did. Even though, they didn't make it, he still has strong feelings for her, and I would NEVER do anything to hurt her. That is just cruel. Plus I have a thing called RESPECT for my family members. There's been some times that even my parents have dated people I found to be distasteful, but, at the end of the day, that's my family, and supporting them and their choices is all that matters to me. My parents support my choice to be with my husband after all that we have gone through. It hasn't been a cake walk, as no marriage ever is, but you know what? My parents love ME so much that they haven't even said ONE derrogatory thing about my husband, because they know how much I LOVE HIM and would NEVER do anything to make him feel unloved by me or by them. They actually CARE if my marriage works. They WANT IT TO b/c I WANT IT TO. You know I never heard my mother or my father even when I was in tears and didn't think I could do it, ever tell me to leave Rick. They were always asking me if it was worth it, and how they thought I should stick with him because he is young and marriage takes work. This coming from two people who divorced after 20 years. They were still supportive of MY marriage and MY family. That's how families are SUPPOSE to be. It doesn't matter if you disagree with something that your sibling or child's significant other does, you still support them. You can find ways to address any issues you have with them without being cruel or hateful. It's stupid, and insane to treat someone "NEW" to your family like the biggest outsider ever. Like highschool all over again. I swear! It's like if you weren't there from the beginning then you don't deserve to be there through the end? No, that's not how it works. People can never TELL you WHO to love or HOW to love them. At the end of the day, all you have is family. I guess some people don't get that and never will. I have been very blessed to have the family that I do. We are all still very much involved in each other's lives and supportive. Heck, my mom and dad are best friends. When they have relationship problems they can sit outside in my dad's garage and talk about it, and lean on each other for support or ideas on how to fix things. That's AMAZING to me. That's family right there. Maybe we all could take a lesson from them, or at least some of us can!

P.S: I have started believing that the internet is the root of all that is evil. It's like you no longer have the right to say whatever you want without people getting all angry inside. Like my friend Apryle says,"it's my site my blog I can say whatever I want because I have freedom of speech. If you don't like it then don't visit my website." That is all so very true. If you don't like what people are saying about you, either A)don't go where you know you aren't liked or B)don't cause problems for people to blog about. It's that simple. I kind of almost in a way, feel that these sites were purposely made so that people could misconstrue them. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy, but some days I don't even want to write my thoughts because of what "others" might say or do. Then, I feel vendictive because I write my thoughts. So, it's a no win either way it goes. You either do it, or you don't, and wish you did. So, do you stay silent and keep the peace, or speak out and free your voice? Either way, you never win...